I woke up at 6 in the morning it’s still dark outside but the sun is slowly coming up it’s a beautiful scene I am so comfortable in my bed even though there is no silk draped over my skin I feel at home, well I am
I got up and made myself a cup of coffee and went to my balcony where there are birds chirping I can see people are walking up to go and start their day as the lights of their houses are turning on, I can feel the wind in my hair dragging it towards itself, there are leaves so green and flowers so pretty that everything is just perfect
Sometimes in life by passing time we just forget to appreciate what is around us we say that we are living so fast and busy so we can have a better life but are we living? Is this what life really is?
So my first blog post of 2018 even though its 11th January, so this year as I think I mentioned before that I have to accomplish a lot of things but one of my main goals is to give time to myself and my surrounding I have spent too much time taking care of people don’t get me wrong I still care about the people I love but from now I will be my priority too with all of this busyness I will indulge more in myself and trying to find things which are hidden in me I am not saying that I changed from the first day of 2018 but slowly I am and I will. btw do you guys have any goals this year if so what? Tell me if you guys would like to know my goals of 2018.
Hey!!How are you guys doing? I have been so busy these days you know it’s the end of the year and now is the time you have to complete all the work that you have been procrastinating to do but what so ever I was feeling quite low this week and had a really deep weird conversation about life with my best friend as we were discussing I thought that I should share some part of it here on my blog and hopefully someone can relate.
People often ask “what’s wrong” or “Is everything okay” when they notice that you look puzzled but I just reply with “nothing” and make sure they believe me but today I have an answer for this question:
Standing ….I just keep twisting the ring on my finger.
Sometimes I feel like I can conquer the world and that I have everything and everyone and sometimes I feel like I have nothing, like a man standing in the middle of a desert all alone and you know what I am tired really tired that I just want this time to stop and let be breath let me live cause I always feel like I am in a game, the timer is going on and I am going to lose this game called life and if you have anxiety you can probably relate to my next line “It’s probably my fault” yes I feel like this about everything and even about situations that I don’t even link up with but still my brain it keeps reminding me that I am the reason “This” took place.
While saying all of this let me say that I am not sad or unhappy, I am happy I have people who love, understand and support me and I am grateful for them and that’s why I am writing this because a lot of people think that if I have anxiety I cannot be happy and trust me it’s not like that at least for me I do feel the above things but I am happy in my life too I have people who care for me and support me in my hard times but there and times when I feel low when I feel like I am all alone and that everyone is going to leave me and that is anxiety for me maybe that’s not what you feel or you think but here I am just tell how I feel and maybe you can relate to some parts of it.
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I lost my best friend. All my school life I had one best friend we were friends from the first day of school and we stuck together for thirteen years. we were great friends. You must be thinking wow a friendship of that many years must be so strong and I was thinking the same thing but well……
When people come up to you and say that either they are “done” with you or that the friendship or relationship is “over” it hurts, you feel miserable you feel like someone stabbed a knife through your heart but you know what hurts the most or more is that when someone doesn’t even think that you are important enough for the last good bye, when some just doesn’t give a damn, when someone knows that they are hurting you and making you cry every night but they still don’t care.Yeah something just like that happen with me and I don’t even know why and what really happened I just know that one day my best friend stopped talking to me.It all started when we both decided to chose different High schools as I was in a private school and she wanted to go for a government school but I never thought that that would affect our friend ship I thought we will still hangout or at least talk but suddenly she stopped talking to me and I tried to know why but her cold reaction was enough to break me into pieces I felt alone I felt like it will never be the same again and that I would never trust someone. And this all made me realize that just like there are toxic relationships there are toxic friendships too and I was in one, but I got out of it I left that chapter of my book and moved on and no it was not easy it took me six months but I did move on and I don’t want to be in that situation again.
But the real reason I am writing this blog is not to tell you my story but the reason is to share that things changed and how I went from feeling alone to feeling blessed. so after some months I started my high school and I was not there to get new friends but these last three months of my life made me realize that “if something bad happens something good will for sure come in return” I found a friend or I would really like to say my best friend, at first I could not trust anyone to be my new best friend to be anything for me but he really proved that there are still good people out there and that time really doesn’t matter in friendships because someone who you are friends with from years can really break you and someone you know only from a few weeks can change the way you look at situations.
I thought I should share this as you might be going through something similar but just know that the world doesn’t end there you have other people who care about you and who can understand you it might be hard right now but it will get better.
Hello everybody! Today’s blog was quite hard to write because I normally do not like to say that I am was scared but I decided to write about it because I think It might help some people .So it was my first day of 11th grade (on 1 august) the night before I was sitting on my bed thinking about a million things at once my brain was full of questions like “how to make friends?” “what type of people I am going to meet?” what teachers I am going to get?” or “if people will think I am not good enough or not” and one thing that was buzzing me more than anything was that I am not capable of sitting with these people but then I took a deep breath as it was too much to take and said the following lines out loud in front of a mirror “ you are worth it and nobody can say that you are not capable because you are.” I kept repeating this until I felt confidant but this was not enough, I felt confidant but still I was worried about making friends as i don’t like to talk strangers or basically people (face to face).This thought kept me awake the whole nigh but in the morning I was too nervous to feel tired. As I entered the college building I see people smiling and talking to each other then these two girls came to me and asked my name and what classes i am talking and from their I realized that in the end everything falls into place and even if you don’t find friends right away just trust the timing of your life. I know it’s the start of school year and everybody is going back to school which can be a bit scary but if you don’t feel confident then fake it, I was reading girl online just few days before my school and I got this Idea of alter ego so if you feel really anxious you try that method (and I would totally recommend reading online girl).I hope you are doing great i kind of pissed as people are still on their summer holidays while i am studying.Are you still on vacation? Let me know in the comment box below.
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Hey guys so this week I have been sick and thank God I feel a bit better now 🙂 and these are some of the things I like to do after being sick or you can also do them after a stressful day to relax yourself.
If I really feel out of energy one thing I do is eat a home cooked delicious meal or sometimes I like to shop it can really drive your attention and make you feel good.
Take care of yourself
Take all your home spa supplies and have a relaxing spa day at home or go to a real spa if not then just take relaxing bath, paint your nails and do a mask.
Watch a movie
Go put on a nice movie, call your best friends and enjoy the movie with some popcorn and other snacks.
Yes! Take a long nap and just relax.
Weirdly one of my Favorite things to do after getting better from sickness is to clean it gives me a really refreshing feeling.
Some other things that you can do:
Listen to music.
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Hey guys! How are you all doing in this blog I will be talking about being positive to know more keep reading.
Don’t stop until you are proud:
I say this because I think the only obstacle stopping you from anything should be your success and that you should not related success with money or fame, to me success means being proud of what you do and what you have.
Just because my path is different doesn’t mean that I am lost:
I believe that if people are questioning you or criticizing you should be strong and always remember the really reason behind whatever you are doing and should continue doing it until and unless it can harm you or others, As everybody in this world is different and if they are criticizing you for something then remember that your way is different and unique then everyone and not everybody is going to like it so just try to ignore negative comments and situations and be grateful for the people on your side and the people who love you.
(If you don’t agree with anything I said in this blog remember that these are my views on these quotes)
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